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I haven't been updating any of my blogs lately. As the only things I wanted to talk about was how depressed I am, I was depressed because I was on a no carb diet, I was depressed because I was fat, I was depressed because I was broke, I was depressed because I was single and lonely.

To cut story short, I was depressed.

I thought about taking xanax cause I have this doctor friend who could give it to me. But then again it went against my principle, I don't do pills, and I got depressed because I didn't want to take those depression pills, and also cause I was worried that I would get addicted to it.

I tried to look at the bright side, and boy I really did. I went back to Borneo and stayed there, depressed that I didn't have a gym to work out in, well, a proper gym, like the ones in KL. But then I picked up a frying pan, and started cooking. And suddenly I was not depressed anymore, I became really really happy, like I forgot about things.

I kept cooking when I went back to kk, it's like you know when you're with someone you really care about, having sex or cuddling or whatever it is you do, and nothing else outside your circle with that person matters? Well, I get that with a person I care about but I also realized that I get that from cooking as well.

If you gave me a fully equipped kitchen, I can say that i am able to whip something up really easily. And I find it funny hwo when I eat, especially outside, I don't only enjoy the food, I think about how to make it as well.

Finally, I found a release that isn't someone to sleep with!

xoxo

Jeffrey James